It’s the second day back since Christmas break ended and I’ve already been thrown a bucket full of disappointing results (flunked one of my tests, almost flunked the other one, and barely made it with the other). I’m not even sure how to react to that. Perhaps I’m both unhappy and uncaring at the same time – unhappy for the most obvious of reasons, and uncaring because… I’m not exactly sure. I was never one to care about school anyway. My mindset? I pass, good. I get a good score, even better. But if I fail? It’s okay. I know I didn’t put enough effort in it so I deserve it.
But somehow, on the second day of the second semester of my second year, I now find this unacceptable.
This is really, really hard.